I tried to make it, I really did. But let's just say I'm taking a detour to the finish line.
It's not even that I quit...
I'm no quitter...
I'm just realizing that I've been running the wrong race...
I have 2 more days left of work as a high school teacher, and at this very moment I am sitting in the back of my most unruly classes as they are supposed to be watching a movie...
*side-eye* supposed to be.
It is this class that makes me worry about the future generations. In all of my classes I confirm that this is definitely not what I want to be doing right now. I don't want to be involved in the corrupt disorganization of school systems. And as much as I was ready to change it when I came out of college, I am just too burned out. Everyone knows an effective and inspirational teacher is not one who is burned out by September. But this is my reality. I can no longer stand in front of my students because I have no energy left to serve them.
And that's okay right? Like any relationship gone sour, sometimes you "gotta let it go and if it comes back then you know." I mean I sure would rather spend my days blissfully satisfied by life rather than struggling to create happiness that gets torn apart by little humans with raging hormones and a slew of personal issues that I can't always provide comfort for. Now, don't get me wrong... Most of them are really great kids, but that doesn't change the fact that I am completely unhappy in this specific profession as a traditional teacher.
So I am off to be the Side Hustle Queen and explore what I can during this time of unemployment...
The big question is am I going to return to my last two days of work to say goodbye to my students... or am I gunna duck on 'em and just disappear out of Louisiana.
One things for certain... I am happy I am leaving.
It's not even that I quit...
I'm no quitter...
I'm just realizing that I've been running the wrong race...
I have 2 more days left of work as a high school teacher, and at this very moment I am sitting in the back of my most unruly classes as they are supposed to be watching a movie...
*side-eye* supposed to be.
It is this class that makes me worry about the future generations. In all of my classes I confirm that this is definitely not what I want to be doing right now. I don't want to be involved in the corrupt disorganization of school systems. And as much as I was ready to change it when I came out of college, I am just too burned out. Everyone knows an effective and inspirational teacher is not one who is burned out by September. But this is my reality. I can no longer stand in front of my students because I have no energy left to serve them.
And that's okay right? Like any relationship gone sour, sometimes you "gotta let it go and if it comes back then you know." I mean I sure would rather spend my days blissfully satisfied by life rather than struggling to create happiness that gets torn apart by little humans with raging hormones and a slew of personal issues that I can't always provide comfort for. Now, don't get me wrong... Most of them are really great kids, but that doesn't change the fact that I am completely unhappy in this specific profession as a traditional teacher.
So I am off to be the Side Hustle Queen and explore what I can during this time of unemployment...
The big question is am I going to return to my last two days of work to say goodbye to my students... or am I gunna duck on 'em and just disappear out of Louisiana.
One things for certain... I am happy I am leaving.